Bombed

Words cannot describe how down I feel about how the interview went today.

I guess it's because the guy had a seriously good poker face. No indication from him whether he was happy with my answers, only a mild frown occasionally.

I got an impt technical question wrong, but I'm convinced I sounded like I was smoking him at some stages. Worst of all though, I feel like my nervousness showed, which irritates me cos I'm normally very calm and confident at interviews.

At the end, he just looked at me with a stone face and said ok, we're done. That's it. No we'll be in touch, no how we'll proceed from here, just ok we're done.

But why am I so down? Why do I feel like my confidence in myself has taken a hit? Is it because I want it so badly and it looks like I can't have it? (I hope not). Or is it because of my pride, that I want to do well in everything that I do? Either way, I don't feel so great...

Am I so lousy that the lack of affirmation from a stranger can have such an effect on me? I can't believe it. Get a grip of yourself!

Ah well... perhaps it's not meant to be. Worse, perhaps I'm not good enough for this industry?