Happy CNY!

Technically speaking, I've only had 1 working day so far.. but you just knew it wouldn't be counted that way right?

For the first hour on the first day, CNY eve, I still thought I might get away with it and have a work-free holiday period. Haha, once the senior analyst got in, reality sat in and from that point, I worked at a pace I had not gone at before. Seriously..many have told me that the pace in banks is consistently intense, but only experiencing it today did I even partially appreciate that. Before you knew it, it was 11pm.. I was tired and so not smiling.

Been spending the last few days wondering why in the world I am like that, why I insist on putting myself through this. If it wasn't so tragic, it's almost funny that I am going through the process my dear went through a month ago. The newness of the workplace, the feeling that you cannot make it and might be let go one day, the frustration at why do this to yourself and put yourself through the hours, the desire to just have a nice simple peaceful quiet life with each other..Hai... hope I have the energy to last this man. I am sick and tired of changing jobs all the time.

Yet, I can't deny that underlying that is an excitement about it too, if only I could do my job better. I know I'm being harsh on myself, but the expectation is so high, so much for me to catch up and improve. If I could just do that, the day I finish my first deal I know it'd be amazing.

Okok, enough moping. For all the sob stories, I actually got to do everything I intended to do this CNY anyway (other than reunion dinner). Visited mum's side at popo's lunch first day, visited dad's side at lao ku's lunch 2nd day, even managed to have dinner with the wedding committee plus plus yesterday:

Thanks Angie for taking the photo (and sacrificing your place in it)! Your other photos were amazing, as usual.

Have to go into office for a little while tomorrow evening, but I do get to go to church then ELIM visiting Simon & family. Yay!

Happy new year everybody!

p.s. they ban gmail at office but allow facebook??