Imagine always shifting up to 4th gear everytime you hit the road, then going at a speed that pushes 4th gear and wishing you had a 5th gear.
That's what it feels like right now. A new pace and speed so fast I never knew, me wishing hoping praying that I can find the gear to match it, otherwise right now it's just vrooooooooooooooom but no gear forthcoming. haha...
Today was particularly bad. Hours I can handle, but somehow I just feel so slow, so inefficient, so lacking in aptitude. Was struggling for so long to do something which I did all the time in EY (tho granted maybe cos I'm expected to do in a quarter the time here).
Ok, I admit it. I'm feeling miserable. But it's largely cos I'm not a fan of getting to know new places, new people and I think right now I don't feel all that confident of my abilities. For the first time in my life, I feel like I'm not performing adequately (let alone outstanding) and could well be let go (2 weeks notice in first 6 mths!).
Anyway, some pictures of the work place:
That's what it feels like right now. A new pace and speed so fast I never knew, me wishing hoping praying that I can find the gear to match it, otherwise right now it's just vrooooooooooooooom but no gear forthcoming. haha...
Today was particularly bad. Hours I can handle, but somehow I just feel so slow, so inefficient, so lacking in aptitude. Was struggling for so long to do something which I did all the time in EY (tho granted maybe cos I'm expected to do in a quarter the time here).
Ok, I admit it. I'm feeling miserable. But it's largely cos I'm not a fan of getting to know new places, new people and I think right now I don't feel all that confident of my abilities. For the first time in my life, I feel like I'm not performing adequately (let alone outstanding) and could well be let go (2 weeks notice in first 6 mths!).
Anyway, some pictures of the work place:
my little (and still bare) corner - with the hours spent staring at the comp, i'm glad i have a nice big monitor to look at.
far view of office - it really dun look that different from EY
my neighbour on my left, the Bloomberg machine to my right (in the corner) - been using it as a secondary computer since its so near and mine is so slow
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