Father, I understand now why against all reason, You let me have this job. It so completely goes against serving You, doing all that I want to do for You, but You knew how much I wanted this job and You actually let me have it.
Why? Given the way I am, this was the only way I would ever see that this is not the life I want, this is not the sacrifice I want to make, this is not what is going to make me happy. Others would know before making such a decision, clearly I am not one of others. I had to see for myself, feel for myself and know for myself, once and for all, this is not me.
The past 3 weeks have pushed me to the very edge. This is not merely hating my job. If it were, I'd just deal with it and continue. But it's affecting my health, affecting (quite frankly) my sanity. I am literally at the very edge and I don't have the worldly motivation in me to go on making this sacrifice in the name of ambition.
I told my VP I'm quitting today..
Why? Given the way I am, this was the only way I would ever see that this is not the life I want, this is not the sacrifice I want to make, this is not what is going to make me happy. Others would know before making such a decision, clearly I am not one of others. I had to see for myself, feel for myself and know for myself, once and for all, this is not me.
The past 3 weeks have pushed me to the very edge. This is not merely hating my job. If it were, I'd just deal with it and continue. But it's affecting my health, affecting (quite frankly) my sanity. I am literally at the very edge and I don't have the worldly motivation in me to go on making this sacrifice in the name of ambition.
I told my VP I'm quitting today..
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